When I was little I was convinced that by 25, I would be married, set in my career and have a baby on the way. Well, this actually turned out to be the life of my bestie, but definitely not my path. I only figured out what I really wanted to do at age 27 so I went back to school at that time to do a post-grad. I still always said I wanted children, but that deadline kept shifting later and later. Over the last few years, I decided I didn’t really need any.
I realized I liked being able to travel as I pleased, do things on my own timeline, not having to consider another human, eat cereal for dinner and sometimes just not talk to anyone for entire weekends (hello “me” time). So basically I became selfish. I still told my mum that I would have a baby at age 35 but I only really said this because I want her to have a grandchild. I didn’t really care about the kid, but really wanted my parents to have grandkids. Not the best reason to want a kid but there you go.
As mentioned, most of my friends have babies and I love them all, but none have ever made me want my own. I wanted to be that cool aunt who can babysit when needed but then gets to give them back. I hear about women who suddenly say a switch flips and they get baby fever but that never really seemed like something I would go through.
Then I woke up on July 8th, 2020. The best way to explain it is that my ovaries were literally tingling and speaking to me. Not in the ovulating way, but in the YOU NEED A BABY way. I woke up and all I could think about was how I could have a baby and how soon I could get one. I texted my mum around 8am that morning and let her know that “I am going to have a baby”. She was totally on board and actually didn’t really question my sudden life decision (I suspect she was so thrilled that she didn’t want to risk changing my mind).
So here we are, it is September 2020, I want a baby and I am still single. I have been on 4 dates in the last 2 weeks (I’ll get into those later) and have spent the summer figuring out all of my options. Initially, I decided that I did NOT want to grow the human myself, mostly because I do not want to actually birth it, but a surrogate is not an option unless you medically cannot have a child. I was really hoping I could just pay a nice lady to grow my human for me but apparently not.