I am feeling SO MUCH BETTER TODAY.
I am bleeding from my vagina which is not the most fun but mood-wise I am SO much better. I took my last BC pill on Sunday and honestly, it is like night and day. I knew they were really screwing me up, but wow. Today has been pretty darn good mood-wise, energy-wise and just overall pretty good. Words cannot express how horrible I felt for those three weeks. I was SO anxious every day. I felt like my heart was going to race outside of my chest, everyone annoyed me, everything irritated me, I was not coping well and I was so overwhelmed by the simplest things. Not fun. I could barely talk to my mum on the phone and that is not like me at all.
It is crazy how much it was impacting me for the negative. I really hope I don’t have to go on it again. If I do I will ask for a different brand…
I am currently bloated, crampy, and eating literally EVERYTHING in sight but my mood is so much better. I literally was Googling “why do you get hungry on your period” because this is unreal.
So an update…As mentioned, I finished the pills Sunday. I was supposed to finish Tuesday but I was spotting pretty badly so my Dr. said just stop. Monday was Day 1. Yesterday I had my Day 3 ultrasound and blood and I started Letrozole 10mg for 5 days. I have 10 follicles on the right and 5 on the left.
My next appointment is Day 8 (Monday) to see how my follicles are doing. If it looks like there is not a follicle growing how it should we will add in the shots at that time.
I thought that I would be ovulating in like a week…apparently it will take a little longer…I am feeling very impatient! Part of me wants the Letrozole to work but another part of me wants the shots and then to get like 4 or so growing to up my chances…but I know if too many grow then we would have to cancel trying. That would not be good either.
I also keep having nightmares where I miss the ovulation…and then I have to wait another month. I somehow mess up the injections, or my donor is not around, or the clinic doesn’t respond to my question and suddenly it happens and I didn’t know…SO MANY NIGHTMARES.
I also received my cortisol results and they are quite high…My Dr. doesn’t seem overly concerned but I am? This was through a 24hr urine test and normal ranges are 0-193 and mine are 281…So then I played Dr. Google for high cortisol. Don’t. Just don’t. I know that I am a high-stress person so this is not surprising but if you Google it….well, I basically for sure have a tumor. So I emailed the endocrine Dr. I had a consult with back in April with my results asking if I should be concerned as she asked about my cortisol at the time of our consult but I didn’t have it yet.
One thing after another that is for sure.
Oh and I stubbed my toe SO hard the other night, left middle toe is black and blue. Probably broken. I think I have now broken every toe on that foot. But at least my mood is better?
Happy almost Friday!