So this is where we are. It is now September 14th and I don’t have any more dates lined up just yet. I am talking to a couple of men on the app but nothing planned (this pen pal thing really does irk me though).
This Friday I have my followup appointment with Dr. Redmond and I really hope it is all good news. I started taking prenatal vitamins two weeks ago and I take Omega-3 and vitamin D as well. I am a little worried that one of the tests will show something is wrong but trying to be optimistic. Ideally, I would have a baby born near the beginning of the calendar year, but since I don’t know how long it will take me to get pregnant, I just want to start trying. If I have a Christmas baby so be it. If all of the stars align, I will start baking in November and have a baby next summer!
Part of me feels like this is all pretend but I know it is what I truly want. I see people with young children and just imagine it being me (unless the kid is being really fussy, then I ignore and walk faster). I see pregnant women and want that belly. Recently I have been gaining a little weight and I keep telling myself I am practicing and getting my body ready. Why not. You only live once.